unemployed lamentations

i'm ready to start working again.
of course it's about the money, but at the same time it's more of a social thing for me.
all i've done for the past twelve years is work (and go to school for seven of those);
why is it so hard to find decent work?

i'm tired of being someone's charity case:
is there a signed posted on me that says HELP ME?
and if i do get help, i do thank the helper.
i'm entitled to nothing, and all i want is one chance.
i used to beg and beg and beg, but that's senseless.
that won't get me anywhere.
i can do almost anything (sorry, i ain't dancing) and i adapt really well,
what gives?
tell ME what's wrong and i'll fix it.
i want to get out of this house.
mainly, i want to work.
i don't care the position nor the hours -
just give me something, and i'm happy.
being unemployed is driving me bonkers.
how do some people not work for so long?
and what do they do for cash flow?
rather, how do you get money?

i need to talk to people though lately no one needs me.
i've lost what few social graces i had and i have even acquired a dr. jekyll/mr. hyde personality.
all the more reasons why i need to work.